Autumn is Coming

      Excuse me whilst I have a mini heart attack. Now that I've composed myself, I cannot wait until autumn is fully in session. I have been waiting all summer long for it to get here and I cannot simply stand it any longer. If it isn't obvious yet, I love autumn and winter so much. The leaves change colors and the weather is cool and just better. I don't have to worry about my hair being a frizzy mess and my face being as oily as can be. You can go and get salted caramel hot chocolate and not be judged by the crowd because its too hot for hot drinks. Walking around downtown wearing sweaters and autumn colors. Its just the best time of the year. If you live in an area where the colors change I envy you because where I live it changes but not drastically where you can go and jump on the leaves and hear them crunch under your feet. Then after two or three months of autumn everyone is getting ready for winter and Christmas, which has to be my favorite holiday of the year and then everyone goes out on their holidays with family and friends and its just wonderful. I will be posting much more now than before because I was really busy with work and school, so I didn't have enough time to actually sit and write. I'm really excited. I've also been working on remodeling my room and so hopefully by the end of the year I will have a somewhat more complete look to it and I will post about the before and after. I hope the day is treating you well and that you are as excited for the next couple of months as I am. Little fact about me, when I get excited I loose complete control and get ecstatic. I can't contain my excitement as well as my sister and I worry it comes off as obnoxious ha ha ha. Well hope you have a wonderful day! 

These are the candles I've bought for autumn. I absolutely love the Pumpkin Pecan Waffles and the Salted Caramel Corn. The other two don't smell like much or it just might be that I have a poor nose. 

Fiesta: NIOSA 2014

Ever since I moved to Texas, I was never much involved with how life worked out here. I partially blame my slight depression and homesickness. I suppose that you become socially alienated when you don't feel the need to go socialize. Well this year has a bit a whole lot different. I don't warm up to people quickly so being comfortable with friends took me a little while but I have some of the greatest people as friends. In San Antonio there is an annual fiesta (spanish for party) where there is just endless celebration. Every weekend there is a different "theme" for the fiesta and there is massive amounts of food and drinks. There is music and bands playing in different areas downtown. I can't say that I didn't enjoy myself. I couldn't attend all of the festivities because there is not enough time with school but also there is not enough money so I had to pick one from the three weekends that fiesta happens. I ended up going to NIOSA and it was splendid. San Antonian's really do know how to party and even though there is plenty of alcohol going around there is no one building up a ruckus. It was perfect! There is plenty of security as well. The only advice I would give is not to bring small children along or take them to a less congested area. There is a lot of people and loosing a child in a sea of people is no fun. Specially when everyone is cramped up trying to move about.

If you are ever in the San Antonio area I highly recommend that you go to this because it is just so much fun. You will not regret it. 

xx

It's been a while....

Well I've certainly missed writing just for pleasure. I can't say how fast this semester has gone in school and how close we are to the end of it. Spring flew by so fast but I can't complain really, except for the fact that I wish we had more time to work on my grades or at least opportunities. I haven't done much but school and work but I've done several interesting things along the way. I'd say they are small but none the less good things.

Not too long ago I went to volunteer for Race for the Cure and it was amazing! I didn't run the race this year but even just watching people come out and support a great cause. Some people were running for a loved one that passed away but others were running or walking for someone who survived. I went to the event with some coworkers of mine but it was as if it was just friends since we were separated from the group.

I also volunteered with the Food Bank and I can't say how shocked I was at how much food is thrown away. They pulled out crates of food and we sorted through all of them and threw out the majority of it for reasons like, it wasn't packaged correctly, it didn't have an expiration date, or just the bag was not sealed properly. I suppose it all makes sense because we don't want people to die but all the food we threw out we could have cooked and given out to the poor. It was a really great experience though and I wouldn't change it for the world. 

Also for my winter holidays, I went to visit some family in Mexico. At first I was a little resilient on going but I think that it was the best idea I've had in a long time. I enjoyed being with my family and all my aunts, uncles, and cousins. I actually grew closer with my family which had been a while since I felt that way. I ate a lot of food and I will probably make a separate post on that because of how much I ate. I do have some pictures of the places I went to. I can't wait to go back for another mini holiday. 

You are Beautiful

As I am typing this up, it is currently freezing outside and inside my home. I can't help but shake but I really want to write about this. 

What is beauty? is it really something physical or does it come from within? In my opinion it is both. I don't think beauty comes in a generic form. Beauty comes in different shapes, types, and sizes. It comes in the most basic form and it is not difficult to attain because we are all beautiful in a unique way. There might be people that think otherwise due to the high number of adverts that tell women that looking a certain way is the only way to be pretty or be considered beautiful by the rest of us in the world. That is one of the biggest lies in the world because we all have different classifications for beauty. We might think beauty is not something that comes from the outside but something that comes from the inside. It might be something that comes from the outside and not the inside. When I say that it comes from the outside I don't mean to specify that certain attributes are more attractive than others. I think that we all find different features attractive and should respect that. I've seen girls post online that they don't like their bodies and they wish to be a certain size so guys will like them. Beauty can't be something that you define on a scale that depends on how many guys like you. If a guy doesn't like you the way you want him to well then he doesn't and you have to accept that. You can't force someone to like you the same way you like them but that doesn't mean that changing your body will make them like you. If a person is worth being with and isn't going to be a jerk they won't judge you for your physical aspect. They will accept you the way you are. If that were the way it worked I don't think a lot of us would be happy with the person we are with. When it comes to someone liking you, in my opinion, it means that they like you for the person you are and how you act and carry yourself around. Being insecure is nothing new to humans and I think that everyone has something to be insecure about. Whether it'd be from your face to your body or to the way you sound to people, everyone has some sort of insecurity. The difference is that some of us are stopped by them and some of us work through them and don't let something we can change block us from becoming a better person. I think the best way to overcome insecurities is to love yourself. If you love yourself people around you will love you because you emit a certain air that shows that nothing can stop you. You will look good because you feel good in your own skin. Its not something completely easy but it can be done with help and support from the people that love you. I understand that sometimes even the people close to you put you down. My only advice to that is to get rid of those people. Those people are not good for you and for your state of mind. A good person will help you be better and like you for who you are and will never put you down but will lift you up. This person doesn't have to be a significant other, it can be your friend or your coworker or your neighbor. If you trust someone who is really worth putting your trust in they will return that as well. If people hate on you because you don't meet or exceed their expectations then they are not good people to be around. You might have fun with them but at the end of the day they are not looking out for you in the best way. Changing yourself and not letting your true self out will not make it a better life but you will continue to suffer. You have to love yourself in order to love another. You have to respect yourself in order to respect another. I feel that's the reason why there is a problem with bullying. Many people walk around life hating and envying other people that they don't take care of themselves and when they see someone doing well they want to bring them down because they don't want to be the incompetent person left behind. Don't let envious people put you down. You are beautiful just the way you are and changing the beautiful person that you are won't make it better. If you are trying to reach a goal don't do it for someone else but for yourself because in the end you are the best friend you could ever have. Let people help you, but don't let people bring you down. Most of all don't ever think you are less then anyone else because you are unique and you can do whatever you put your mind to do. 

Have a wonderful weekend

xx

Liz Earl: Young Skin Try-Me Kit Review

Hello! Its been a while hasn't it. Well I have had proper time to try the little baby you see right up in the picture. As I said before in one of my posts, I was having a bit of a break out with my skin and it was sucking a lot. I decided to try out the Young Skin Kit from Liz Earl. This product is not exactly cheap but if you are trying all sorts of products for your skin to look its best then sometimes that doesn't matter. This little try me pack lasted me for about three months or so. The first couple of weeks I was feeling a change on my face. The Hot Cloth Cleanser is really good for any type of skin type and it left my skin feeling really soft. The only thing that was a bit odd for me was that you don't use water while applying the cleanser. The water came after with the cloth. Then came the toner. The toner smelled like baby powder. I wanted to spray it all over myself but I had to contain my urge to do so. I didn't feel it as drying as other toners and it doesn't have alcohol so it doesn't sting or make your face feel like its completely dry and sticking to your face muscles. (Apparently if you get out of the shower and your face feels really tight that means you have dry skin and if you don't then you have normal to oily or combination skin. Disclaimer: this is something that a lady at the Clinique counter told me). I didn't feel a real change with the toner. It felt as if I was spraying water on my face with a bit of scent to it. The light moisturizer was the least of my favorites. It has a weird smell that I am not exactly fond of. If I used even a little too much my face would become really oily and gross. I would try to just put the slightest bit on because I couldn't put too much on without having it feel like I had grabbed my lipbalm and smeared it across my whole face. It would leave my skin soft though. As much as I love this, it wasn't the best for my skin. I started getting these blackhead like spots on the side of my cheek, which are still somewhat there and have become very annoying. The Deep Cleansing Mask was very good for the purpose of cleaning the pores but I didn't feel like it did a good enough job. I've tried better from different brands. Overall, I think that this product is a good product but can have a little bit of reaction on some skin types or just skin in general. I don't expect to buy this again but if you are like me and are willing to try anything to make your skin looking well again then you can give it a go. I have an extra travel size kit of the Hot Cloth Cleanser with the cloth. If you would like to try it for free let me know and we will make arrangements.

xoxo

Relationships Withdrawls: The Single Life Sucks Sometimes

You know as I'm sitting here amongst my many notebooks and unwashed dishes I can't help but think about how I felt when I was in a relationship. I have to say that I miss it a lot even though I enjoy being single. When your single you don't have to be in contact with someone 24/7 or have to go out with them. You can basically just relax in your running shorts and trainers and not care about what you look like for days on end, unless you have to go out into a public setting. I love being single but I also love having someone for be there at the end of the day. As much as I want to be Miranda Priestly (Meryl Streep, The Devil Wears Prada), I can't help but yearn to be Allie who has her Noah writing her 365 letters. I don't want someone who writes me 365 texts a day but it would be nice to have a boy care about my cruddy day regardless of how boring and uneventful its been.

I was sitting with my friends at a Starbucks today and we were discussing relationships and boys/girls. We all want that one perfect person for us but being realistic we won't find the perfect being because there is no such thing. Of course there can be someone, who along with their imperfections, we find them to be the perfect match for us because just like Blair Waldorf and Chuck Bass, our demons can get along just fine. That's the kind of love I want, and possibly love is too far fetched but the closest thing will do. I would be amazing to find someone who isn't necessarily similar to me but close to a copy where we balance each other nicely. I guess I will have to go and buy a bag or chips or cookies and dwell upon my single life because to top it all off I'm lactose intolerant, so getting a tub of ice cream is not an option unless I want to toot my way back to school and continue tooting until morning. So if you are single like me do like Beyonce and dance to 'All the Single Ladies'. Its better than just laying there and mopping about it but mope once a week and dance the rest of the days and make milkshakes because milkshakes bring the boys to the yacht, even if you don't have one.

This is What I've Learned from Relationships

As the title constitutes, I will be purely writing about nothing else but my naive experience in the relationships realm. At the ripe age of five or six, maybe younger, we learn all about prince charming. Regardless if we are not able to process the whole shindig as romance, we just know he's there and that there is a princess hidden somewhere in a castle or closed up in a glass casket. Perfect relationship, right? Although closed up in a casket doesn't seem so perfect, the kiss on the other hand does. Well, when you grow up life isn't made up of woodland creatures who help you do your chores and make you a dress or godmothers who grant your wishes (not even Hogwarts). You slowly start learning about life through all sorts of life experiences and sometimes some of these suck. Unfortunately, we don't get it right the first time like Cinderella, so we have to try again several times to find our "prince charming". 

So let me spread some of my well acquired knowledge to all you beautiful women and men out there in need of some useful or useless advice. You decide which is it. 

This is kind of my number one rule now a days. If you met the guy a few weeks ago and have only spoken to him in person a few times but text a lot I would suggest not to walk the plank and head into a relationship right away. Surprisingly, I did this and it was kind of a mixture of things. Get to know the person a lot more than just through talking. Observe the way they behave around people. In my opinion it is so much better when you are friends with the person for some time before even dating them. Being friends with someone gives you the chance to see who the person is without there being an obligation to be nice to you because you are dating. I think that's one of the things people do when in relationships. They treat each other extremely well, which isn't bad but you don't really get to see their bad side or how they would treat you in the long run after they've become tired of being nice to you. 

Don't ignore a relationship that didn't work out. Sure its over and you just want to move on, depending on where you stand, but it is really beneficial that you look back on them. I like to call this the "500 Days of Summer" mantra. If you've seen the movie then you probably know what I'm referring to, and if you haven't let me explain. (I promise I won't give away any spoilers.) In the movie, Tom recalls all the things in his "relationship" with Summer but he doesn't focus on his hate or love for her but just simply sees it with open eyes, if you must. Always learn from you failed relationships, ALWAYS! Don't ignore anything. If your former love interest did something wrong, learn from that. Also look at what you did wrong. Don't just focus on what the other person did or how they hurt you because there are two people in a relationship and each one has a bit of responsibility to whether it works or doesn't. You learn a lot about yourself and a lot about people that way. The bonus, you get to learn a lot about how people work and how to avoid repeating certain mistakes.  

This is like the topic of the year. Friend zoning. That's all I have to say. If a guy/girl is interested in you and you don't like them, tell them in the nicest way possible. It sounds mean but its better to tell someone then just having them keep bugging you about it. If you don't want to hangout with them just say, "thank you but I don't want to hangout and lead you on into something that's never going to happen." That sounded kind of mean. I would just say that you just like them as a friend. Its easier and you don't have to make up excuses or lie about why you can't hangout with them. If you are the person who is getting shut down, don't pull the "friend zone" line. It is rude and it is so immature. It shows that you can't handle rejection well. You should not force someone to go out with you out of pity or guilt. It is not nice and it is the worst thing you can do. 

This has got to be a big one for me because as a person who is much better at writing than speaking, I prefer someone who I can talk to about anything and not just the weather (or whales attacking their trainers). For example, I once dated a boy with two first names that was very attractive but I couldn't find a topic of interest. It was probably the age difference or just that we had nothing in common but it was complete torture. I liked looking at him. He was nice to look at, and kiss, and such but one cannot rely on just that for a relationship to work. You have to be able to talk about the dumbest and the smartest topics. I think that we learn much more about a person who has a array of interests rather than someone who has completely opposite interests from yours. It could be interesting at first but you can't pretend to be interested every time they bring up the subject. When you have the person you can hit it off with, you just know. Also, it doesn't always have to be about talking. You have to be able to sit in silence with the person you are dating and not have it be awkward. It is unbelievable torture to sit there and not know what to say. I've tasted that flavor of that Kool-Aid and I did not enjoy it. (I apologize at my attempt of trying to be clever). In other words, I've been there, done that, and it was awful. 

One of the great things about being in a relationship or just liking someone is that the other person makes you happy. If you have a crappy day and you talk to them at the end of the day or you just get a text from them, it makes your day ten times better. You know the feeling you get of little butterflies fluttering around in your stomach or the excitement you get by seeing their name on your phone's screen. We all get it! And there is nothing wrong with someone making you less unhappy. It is so much nicer when you are in a good mood and you are with the person you like that likes you back. I do have to say that as much as it is good that this happens, you shouldn't base all your happiness on one person. It is the worst possible mistake you could make, and if not the worst then it is one of the worst. You need to make sure that you are happy with yourself before you are happy with anyone else. Don't depend on them making you happy because it is not going to be pretty. You might even end up looking like a psycho girlfriend or crush. Its nice to always have a bit of independence, specially when it comes to your happiness. 

The card above should say something more like, "lets try dating before we rush into sex." If you are starting to think that I am a total prude because of the last sentence, let me stop you right there. I do not look down upon or object with people having sex outside of a relationship or marriage. In the end, it is whatever floats your boat. In my opinion, having sex outside of a relationship is probably not such a good idea. It is like building a friends with benefits relationship and we all know one person gets hurt. A boy may tell you that he's going to date you once you have sex and its total rubbish! He may ask you to prove him that you like/love him and that is rubbish as well. If you need to prove yourself then they aren't right for you. You shouldn't be asked to prove anything. On the other end, there is nothing wrong with having a little naughty encounter with someone you find attractive. If that is what you like then go at it. In my opinion, you should know the person you are sharing your personal space and parts with before engaging in anything. If you aren't comfortable with something, tell him/her! they will understand if they care about you. Don't rush into it though. If its your first time, its best to know that you are comfortable and in terms with what you are going to do. You must also be completely sure about the person. If its not your first time, well I have nothing really to say to you because you know what your doing or have done. In my opinion, a lot of girls and guys don't know much about sex or the opposite sex. Either way, be safe and remember, as an intelligent older nurse once told me, "No glove, no love."

If you plan to travel or follow your dreams of being an amazing musician make sure you have someone who will motivate you to get there or beyond. We always hear people putting us down on what we can or can't do and we surely need at least one person to believe in us. It may be really hard to find someone who will stick with you through the hard times but when you do, that person is one to hold on to. Very few people are there for when we need them or they are just not there in general. Finding someone who is willing to give you the support, motivation, and encouragement is worth keeping around even if they aren't your one true love. You keep relationships with friends as well, although not with the same means as if it were romantic but its always best to keep good company. If a person motivates you and supports your choices, then you should do the same in return because there is nothing better than knowing that someone cares about you. 

Well, it took me quite longer than I actually expected to finish this up. It might all be common knowledge but maybe it might not, either way I hope you did enjoy my little words of wisdom. 

xx